Day 2: Nyquil, Orange Juice, and Mentholatum

Illness never mixes well with.... pretty much anything. With exams and assignments, I most definitely didn't schedule a cold into my agenda. What started out as a headache quickly led to a sore throat, runny nose, head congestion, plugged ears, and a raspy voice. Worst part? My mother is 2 hours away from me :( But reality tells me I need to be a big girl and grow up, and so I invested in some night-time Nyquil, orange juice, and brought out the mentholatum. Miraculous things, those three are! I've never slept so well in my life. Also, special thanks to those who endured my unshowered, sniffly, dazed, half-deaf self.

Thirty Days of Gratitude-Day 1: President Monson

Part of me is really hesitant to even begin this, knowing my crazy schedule and love for sleep. But I figure, what better way to really celebrate Thanksgiving than to truly think about what I'm grateful for? So here goes nothin'!

Day 1: President Thomas S. Monson

Today I had the rare opportunity of listening to President Monson speak, in person! He came to the BYU devotional and delivered a superb message about being an example and the importance of gaining our own individual testimony through the Book of Mormon. I am continually amazed by our Prophet of God. Not only is he a Prophet during these trying final days, but he sets an example to the world in so many areas. I absolutely love his ability to make a serious subject lighter without distracting from the Spirit. What a blessing it is to have a living Prophet on the Earth today to give us revelation from God. Any man who can bring a chatty audience of over 50,000 people to silence simply by walking into the room  is undeniably a man whyo carries the Spirit of Christ with him. I am truly grateful for the opportunity I've had to listen to his words of wisdom and counsel. 

These are the Moments

So, I'm gonna brag for a second. I had an AMAZING week!!! Since I enjoyed it so much, naturally I'm writing a blog about it. Lucky you :) Below are the highlights from the week.
Jimmer's All Stars-Let's be honest, I've never cared about Jimmer a day of my life... Did I watch a single BYU basketball game last year? Nope! But, my roommate and I got discount tickets for the All-Star game. Legit? Yes!!! NBA basketball all stars, who could ask for more? Compared to high school basketball (which is all I've ever watched) it was magical. Am I obsessed with Jimmer? Not in the slighest. BUT! I do feel like a true BYU student now. 

Cafe Rio-Dacy came down from USU and so I had lunch with her and Lauren. I won't lie, I still have a hard time accepting that they used to be my complete enemies. But times have changes :) And who doesn't love Cafe Rio???

BYU vs. UCF Football game- Since when does Bec care about football? Well, pretty much since 3 weeks ago. Do I understand it? Not on my own... but I love it! It's so much easier to understand when you're actually there. And! My tickets were on the third row! That's right, THIRD! And we won :) We forgive and forget, right? Well...some day we'll forget the Utah game... 
General Relief Society Broadcast-I won't lie, I was INCREDIBLY  tired through the entire thing. I managed to stay awake and get some pretty legit insights. President Uchtdorf is about as good as it gets!
Back yard bon fire- So.... I seem to have an addiction. To fire... What can I say, it's a problem. I got to go home for the first time since school started. I will NEVER get sick of going home! I had a fire in my backyard under a blanket of beautiful stars (I miss them so dearly!). Better yet, three of my very best friends from high school were there. Did it last til 4 am? There's a pretty good possibility! But you know how I live for those deep conversations that only come late into the night. Thanks Marie, Rachel, and Ryan 

Jimmy's Farewell-Best. Farewell. EVER! Seriously, he's on his way to be the next General Authority. I was BLOWN away by the words he spoke and the spirit he facilitated. Washington won't know what 'em! Bonus: I got to see a ton of friends from high school, including my Snow College roommates! Not to mention my incredible family
Prank Wars: It's still in it's weak stages, but we're getting there. After printing look alike pictures of some guys in our ward, Bret's car got seran wrapped. So we decided to go to their apartment and steal all their chairs. Well, their roommate kind of gave them to us...we're innocent! After being invaded, we finally signed a peace treaty involving stuffed wolves and cheesecake. We'll see if they follow through.
BYU Police Beat-A beautiful discovery has been made in "The Daily Universe"! The BYU police report!!! Does it get better? I think not! Here are just a few examples: 

• A student reported his backpack stolen. He found it later.
• A man claimed another man rammed him with a stroller at the bus stop. He believed the other man was cutting in line. The matter is under investigation.
• A student through he found his stolen bike by the Kimball Tower. Officers checked the serial number and determined it was not his bike. 
• There was a call reporting two suspicious people sleeping on a sidewalk. Officers arrived and discovered they were not sleeping and were not on the sidewalk. They were lying on the grass talking to each other

Do you see the beauty???
Graded paper-I wrote a paper with absolutely no idea what I was doing. I received it back with the remarks " Absolutely perfect! This is brilliant!" I guess I'll take what I can get!
Speaker Phone Call-There is nothing better than getting a phone call from two of your previous roommates on speaker phone. Emily and Sarah, I love you a lot! It definitely made my life complete to hear from those two beautiful souls again. 

Roommate dinner-Whoever made the decision that it was okay for us to be in public together was terribly wrong! We went to Olive Garden for Natalie's birthday. As a result, we completely creeped out one of the waiters by talking about him every time he passed, and once while he was standing right next to us. SOOO worth it! 
Provo Temple-I decided to be a good student and get my homework done early so I could go to the temple. I still feel super awkward there with missionaries flooding that place, especially having 4 friends in the MTC. But I absoutely love that temple and being able to do baptisms. After watching 17 miracles last night (which my next door neighbor was in! Woot!) I realized one again that I am incredibly blessed beyond all comprehension. 
 So there you have it! Definitely a week to remember! And one cannot forget that question I was asked today in class. "Will you please grade our unicorns and tell us which one is better?" Why yes, don't mind if I do! And tomorrow I not only get to wake up to my "Friday" alarm (a personal favorite), but I also have my Oakcrest reunion!!! WAHOO! I cannot wait! You may be thinking to yourself, "Dude, Bec's life must stink if she's looking for such pathetic things to enjoy" Well, let's be honest. You're probably right. But at least I'm happy :) 

Livin' the Dream

What happened to July and August??? Life is crazy! The summer flashed right before my eyes. I'm sure you're well aware that Oakcrest is now over. Along with that, life is now over. Okay, maybe that's a little dramatic. But let's be honest, a huge part of me there. Leaving camp was much harder than I expected it to be. I have never felt God's love so powerfully as I did there. I never dreamed I would miss scraping plates, getting dressed in .5 seconds, and not showering. More than anything, I miss the optimism Oakcrest provided in my life. The world is much different to me than it was when I left for camp. Yes, I'm completely awkward now. But that's not what I 'm referring to.

So, rumor has it I'm living the dream. You better believe it!!! I've now been in Provo for three weeks now. At first, I was terrified and feeling lonely. Adjusting to life after Snow College is hard, no matter where you are. Let's face it, Snow is just as good as it gets! But with time I've adjusted to a big school, city life, and moving on without my friends right by my side. Some of my beloved friends have been kind enough to take me in and let me tag along, for which I am incredibly grateful.  I must say, Oakcrest not only blessed my life at camp but continues to help me every day! For one, I am now surrounded by a dozen people from camp who truly help me every single day. They are the greatest friends I could ever ask for. Second, I have been blessed with faith as I face this new life. For some reason, most hard things don't phase me much any more. I know this is where I'm supposed to be. There are opportunities here that I can't wait to find.

 How do I like BYU? Words cannot express the deep love I feel for this place! The dream I've had since I was twelve years old is now a reality. I can feel the Spirit on campus! My teachers can take any subject and relate it to the gospel. My Psych 201 professor is possibly my new hero. He truly challenges us intellectually, and relates the gospel in such a profound and stimulating way. I absolutely love it here. I was able to go to the CES fireside of Elder Oaks, and a BYU devotional given by Elder Anderson. I worried that by being around so many incredible people, I would feel lost and inadequate. Instead, I find it intriguing and it motivates me to be better. Yes, the BYU stereotypes drive me crazy! Certainly, there are people here that fit them. But for the most part, I have met some incredibly sincere and humble people. I've come to realize just how much of it's in our heads. People come here, knowing that "typical BYU student" expectation is set for them. And so they conform to it. It's all about what you look for. What a blessing it is to be in an academic environment that is sponsored by the church. No I'm not engaged. Talking to boys pretty much gives me paralysing anxiety due to Oakcrest. But I'm adjusting! 

It's miracle time! Once upon a time it was the first day of school. I had been having a hard time adjusting to being so far away from the ones I loved. I started to pray for opportunities to make new friends if I made a sincere effort to meet people. I went to the library to do some reading and left feeling bummed with the realization that I was pretty much here alone. As I left the library, I stumbled (quite literally) upon some fellows laying on the sidewalk and grass. Trying to get out of their way, I was asked by two guys if I wanted to join them in nightgames. Feeling sorry for myself, I declined and continued on my way. I heard them from a distance joking about their rejection. I got about 50 yards away when I stopped and felt the need to go play. I realized this was the opportunity I was looking for! However, I still had numerous things to do.  Again, I felt a strong desire to go join them! I turned around and started walking back, and then realized how ridiculous I would look after already walking away. Again, I felt a spiritual kick to the stomach, telling me to go play. After walking back and forth at least three times, looking even more ridiculous, I marched back to the group and told them I changed my mind and wanted to play. Throughout the night, I met some incredibly nice people. One girl came up to me afterward and told me she had just gotten home from a mission and didn't know very many people. We exchanged numbers and have hung out on a few occasions since then. I even joined the facebook group and now go every week! These students are possibly the most friendly and accepting people I've met at BYU. I feel a little piece of Snow College here with me when I'm with them. This group certainly has no idea of the impact they've had on me in the last three weeks, simply by asking a stranger to play with them. God works in mysterious ways. Even through nightgames!!! 

I'm still getting used to so many things here. Callings, roommates, walking 20 minutes to get to class, a class bigger than my high school, and the library (I get lost every time...). But every day comes with the promise of new opportunities and a step toward becoming the person I truly want to become. 

PS - I even got a picture with John Allred and met the guys from Kid History! 

"You will find true happiness"

Two more weeks at Oakcrest have flown by in the blink of an eye! Week five is over. Guess what that means? We're halfway done! I am saddened to think that this divine calling will end so soon. Part of me feels like I've been at camp for a week or so. Another part feels like I've been there my whole life. I can hardly remember what a normal life feels like! 

As for the last two weeks, they were as adventurous as ever! Week 4 was a miracle. Period. I had been deep in thought the weekend before about how much more I could do for my girls. With my prayers and fasting, I hoped I would be able to love my girls unconditionally. When Monday morning came around, I immediately felt like those girls were my best friend. They were hilarious! I actually wanted to spend my free time with them. I realized just how much the Savior really does fill in the gaps when we try our hardest. I truly felt that I could see at least a small portion of their potential and Heavenly Father's love for those girls. I miss them so much already! Note to self: be warned when a mother writes "chatty" on her camper card. Highlights: definitely convincing the girls we had baby monitors in the cabin and listened to everything they say, and a girl trying to take a picture of the north star with her disposable camera

Just one experience to share: Thursday night, I had NO IDEA what to teach unit prayer on. This is a far too familiar situation. While at staff meeting, I had a feeling as clear as glass that I needed to teach on families. I prepared the lesson and went out to teach the girls. When I went out, two girls were crying. One had a received a letter that her grandmother had passed away and the other was crying because he dad had passed away when she was younger and the feelings came back very strongly. I panicked that the topic would be too sensative to discuss. Debating on changing it, I once again had that undeniable feeling that I needed to teach on families. So I proceeded. The lesson went much different than planned, but still focused on families none the less. One of my girls pulled me aside after to ask further questions and talk to me about a few things. As we talked, I realized just how badly she needed that lesson. I ended up receiving a note from her best friend telling me how much she needed that lesson, as well as her friend. It was the sweetest note I've ever read, saying that unit prayer contained the answers she was looking for the entire week, that she looked up to me, and that I had changed her life. I know, however, that it wasn't me that changed her but the Spirit. Departing from those girls was truly the hardest part of the week. 


As for week 5, let's just say my energy was a little low. I tried to fake it but I don't think the girls were convinced. It took until Thursday night to really feel any connection to them. My hardest part of the week was patience. That lack of gratitude and whining just gets right to me. Highlight of the week? I was able to give a little presenation to the entire camp on the 4th of July about what freedom means to me. I shared with them my experience of having Jake deployed. It was wonderful! I received so many compliments. I am truly realizing how much the Spirit can teach when we facilitate it. It was a hard thing for me to get through, for it is so dear to my heart. But I realized that not only can we benefit from our trials, but so can others. Those two deployments were so hard, but that night made it entirely worth it knowing that others were able to feel that gratitude and respect. Due to the flash flood this week, I was able to see what a joy and gift music is in our lives. Nothing unifies those girls or calms them quicker than song.


Favorite quotes of the last two weeks:

• First thing my dad says when I come home: "You look like a hippie."
• I wrote this in one of my girls cards without realizing how creepy it sounded: " Remember that people are always, always watching you."
• After doing foam slide in the rain, a girl says " Is it safe to shower when there's a storm?"
• (this one's for the boys downstairs) As I'm telling the girls the other names I was considering, one said "I don't think I'd like you if your name was sledgehammer..."
• After telling my girls we're going star gazing, one asks "What's star gazing..."
• During introductions a girls says, "I'm from a really small town. You've probably never heard of it. It's called South Jordan."
• While walking to the lodge, a girl says "Do they pay you to be optimistic? Because normal people aren't like this..."
• After lending a girl my coloring book, I asked for it back. She said, "Oh ya, I was just keeping it safe in my suitcase" Hm...
• While handing out bananas for breakfast, a girl asks "What are these for?" I stared at her for a second and said ".....to eat?"

So to sum it all up, I've come to really realize what true happiness is. This job is the hardest thing I've ever done. Each day comes with so many challenges. But as I overcome them and trust in the Lord, I am able to see the miracles that happen every day. I am seeing what pure and true happiness come from teaching the gospel and bringing others unto Christ, just as the blessing I received when I was set apart said I would. I am determined to make these next five weeks the best 35 days of my life. Oakcrest, I am deeply in love with you! 

Three Down, Seven To Go!

In some ways, I can hardly believe week three at Oakcrest has come and gone! In other ways, I feel like I've been working at camp my entire life. I won't lie, when I think about the fact that I have seven more weeks I get a little overwhelmed. But I'm taking it a day at a time and learning to make the most out of each and every day! I am loving every day I am at camp, truly making best friends forever. *Insert the Oakcrest staff with their arms around each other chanting "BEST FRIENDS FOREVER" repeatedly*. 

Week 2 was my floater week, and it was definitely needed! The days blurred together into one. Aside from feeling like a creep while doing shower duty, it was a stupendous week! Partying with the specialists, kitchen staff, and directorship was so great. I could listen to Spud all day, every day. The party went wonderfully! The theme was game shows. We had staff saran wrapped together, people eating onion jello, and girls balancing Oreos on their faces. The highlight of my week definitely had to be our Tree Hut table cheer, where we stood up and yelled, "WE LOVE JUSTIN BIEBER" just to see how the girls would react. I think every girl in the lodge had a miniature heartache just at the mentioning of his name. Coming in close second was getting my braces off :) Okay, that's a lie. Getting braces off = BEST DAY EVER!!!

Week 3 was definitely harder than week 1. I had some super tough girls that made my life a little difficult. Between pranks being pulled, a complete lack of unity, girls who refused to sit on anything but a bench, laughing during Unity Prayers, 30 minutes to get out the door every time, and a never-ending amount of girls wandering off on their own, I was completely exhausted. Some of them seemed so hard headed that I thought I would never get through to them. And I don't think I did, but the Spirit definitely did. Even though testimony meeting was an hour and a half, and nearly half the girls bore their testimonies more than three times, it was still one of the greatest I've had. I was able to see a change of heart in so many of them. They certainly made my week one of the hardest of my life. But I realized how grateful I am for the Oakcrest staff. They were more than willing to take my girls for me, talk about how things were going, and give a hug. Despite the difficulties, there were still highlights:

• Peter Breinholt concert! (And my girls didn't even have to go to the bathroom during it!)
• Flour fight
• Telling my girls to go to bed, convincing them I had gone back into my room, and catching them talking again :)
• Twinnie's surprise mission call!!!
• Watching Triscuit kill her first spider
• During lunch on the hike: "Look, the Draper temple! I can see my house from here!!"-Calle "That's not Draper dear..."-Me "Oh, then what temple is that?"-Calle "That's a barn...."-Me

• Having my girls do my hair and nails
• Receiving a note from Tiffany that melted my heart. She was my hardest girl and proved to me that I was actually making a difference in their lives
• Making rock buddies with my girls
• Convincing the girls that Dandelion and I are sisters. Still kind of feeling guilty about that one...
• "Why don't we duct tape the top of our shirts to ourselves so we don't get ticks down them?"
• Comment during dating discussion while going over For the Strength of Youth: "My brother studied this pamphlet five times before his mission. He said he was going to get married right after he got home. He's been home for two years now, and still isn't married."
• FINALLY getting a few missionary letters out.
• Having a girl tell me that day was the longest of the year. I thought she was trying to insult me...apparently it was literally the longest day of the year. 
• New roommates! Chewy and Guhnat. CAN'T WAIT!

Despite many tears and prayers, lack of patience and motivation, I still was able to learn so much from these girls. It amazes me how little we know the difference we're making in someone until they flat out tell us. It's those little notes the girls leave at the end that make the whole week of hardship worth it. Am I nervous for this next week? Most certainly! But I know that no matter what comes, I'll make it through somehow. I'm doing the Lord's work. I know He is aware of me. 

The Best Two Weeks

Spending the weekdays from my cell phone and facebook has caused me to conclude that I need to update my blog every week to keep all of you updated about my adventures at Oakcrest!!! So for those who are recently tuning into my life, I am officially a counselor at Oakcrest girl's camp. We are assigned a dozen girls or so per week to do activities with and teach the gospel to.

Last week was pre-camp week, which was spent with just the staff. Can you say BEST week of my life!? It was definitely hard and tiring in a lot of ways. But overall, I couldn't have asked for a better week. I love each staff member so deeply. They are the most thoughtful, caring, hilarious, and flat-out ridiculous group of women I have ever, and will ever meet. The week was spent training, training, and more never-ending training. With information about everything you could imagine being crammed down our throats, you can imagine we were a little exhausted and worried about the weeks to come. There were definitely tears, some of laughter, some of concern and frustration. There is far too much to tell you in paragraph form, so as usual here is a list of what the week was like:

• Waking up to Disney music being blasted over the intercom at 7 am
• Side-pony tail Tuesdays
• Snow outside on the first morning
• A dead mouse in the cabin
• Ticks. Everywhere.
• The most intense ash fight the world has ever seen
• Evidence of bears and moose in camp
• A neighbors dog miraculously saving us from some wild creature
• Singing, singing, more singing, and more never-ending singing
• Spontaneous dance parties
• Costume parade
• Cake fight-so epic!
• Cinnamon Roll hug
• Seeing everyone, including myself, struggle with Oak-Approp language and getting creative with alternatives
• First time shooting a bow and arrow
• Zipline and obstacle course training
• Spotting a moose on the hike
• Almost hitting the moose in the car on our way back to Salt Lake
• Fire extinguisher training-Oh yeeeeah!
• Feeling ridiculous on trek-where you're blind folded and have to wander up a trail while holding onto a rope
• Skit night-"The construction worker's view on Oakcrest"- by Jazzer and Guhnat
• A wonderful testimony meeting
• Friends and Family day-One of the best days ever!!
• Coming to truly love and understand our theme song, "Stand with the Savior"
• Realizing I have the BEST job in the whole entire world
• The tips for what to do if a bear comes: Cover your neck, so if it attacks you, it won't get your Jugular vein. Pray, and repent!!!
• Rain, rain, and more rain
• Spending free time with Buttercup, sharing stories about our lives. I love her!
• Spiders, crickets, mice, ticks, and any other bug that's creepy and crawly
• Meeting the previous Oakcrest staff and receiving letters with advice from them

During Pre-Camp week I was terrified, let's be honest. I was burdened by the expectations set for me and the responsibilities I was asked to carry throughout the summer. But through many wonderful lessons by the directorship, I learned that I was guided to Oakcrest for a very divine and sacred purpose. I now know for myself that I am at Oakcrest for a reason. A reason I don't fully understand yet, but that is there regardless. I learned that the gospel is one of Godly love. I have never felt so accepted and appreciated in my life! I love each staff member with all of my heart and they truly have become my very best friends. I look forward to each day I get to spend with them. 

Now, onto my actual first week of camp!!! We started on our way Sunday night. Unfortunately we had some vehicle problems and broke down for an hour or so until we could get another car to us. We finally made it to camp and received our cards with the information about our girls for the next week. Reality settled in fast. Much faster than expected!! It felt like opening a mission call, twelve times! Monday morning finally rolled around and I was SO incredibly nervous. We waiting in Aspen Grove. Soon enough, the amphitheatre was filled with 400 beautiful girls who I felt such love and compassion for.

The first couple of days were rough. Well, they were all rough. But the first day was especially hard. We had been so used to being around each other in all our craziness, that I forgot how oddly the outside world would respond. The first part of the week was spent rather uncomfortably. They stared. A lot!!! Everything we did was responded to with  a blank stare of shock and confusion. Within a few days, they finally warmed up and joined us in our weirdness and strange Oakcrest ways.

Most of the lessons I had to teach (Scripture study, Unit Prayer, Solo time, FHE) were on the spot, since preparation time is very minimal. One of the joys of Oakcrest-you KNOW you are doing Heavenly Father's work and therefore He is of great assistance in filling your heart with what to teach. Despite the fact that every time we sang, the girl's would pick a song they didn't know and I was forced to sing a solo in front of them, the lessons went surprisingly well. So once again, there are WAY too many things about this week to write about. So enjoy another list :)

• Standing on a table, dancing to High School Musical in front of 400 girls
• Learning just how often 13 year-olds have to go to the bathroom. Its A LOT!!!
• Praying, praying, and more praying. I couldn't get enough of it!
• Dance party and karaoke!!
• Being called every 10 minutes to come kill a spider or cricket
• Many late night/early morning knocks on the door from girls who had to go to the bathroom
• Continuous questions about what time it was, what we were doing next, and when dinner was
• Scattering Sunshine :) and answering prayers in the process
• Learning to love each and every girl there
• Promptings by the Spirit to teach different lessons than what was planned, and completely winging it
• Many wonderful and sweet notes from the girls on my birthday
• Having 400 girls sing happy birthday to me!
• Being presented "The Scribbles Rock" from Pippin and her girls
• Birthday cake!!!
• Staff Serenade- where we carry around torches and sing to the girls
• Cherie Call concert!
• Foam slide in the pouring rain
• Watching 24 girls be blind-folded and try to walk up a trail-such a touching experience, but completely hilarious at times
• Many homesick girls with faked illnesses
• Typical teenage drama made easier through prayer
• Learning what it really means to trust Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ
• Missing the Oakcrest staff more than I ever dreamed I would!
• Tucking in my girls and reading them bedtime stories
• Dreams about Oakley talking to a cougar....
• Being late. To everything.
• A very humbling testimony meeting
• The most hilarious skits I could have ever seen
• Watching Poppy's and Uncle Jolly's reactions to the skits. Completely opposite, and so entertaining

This last week was honestly one of the hardest things I've ever done. With minimal free time, I was running around like crazy, listening to girls whine, forgetting things, having to go to the bathroom, and wanting to do something other than what we were doing. I had several homesick girls or girls who didnt fit in. But all of these problems were made easier through the help of prayer. I cant count how many prayers I said this week, but I know that every single one of them was answered. I felt God's arms wrap around me and comfort me on a daily basis. This week was hard. But worth it in more ways than I can count. Despite their teenage ways, I love each and every one of those girls so wholly and completely. They have touched me in ways I never dreamed they would.  

Before I close, I want to share my favorite Oakcrest miracle of the week. I had prepared a lesson for the unit prayer and was ready to teach it. Right before my free time was up, I felt like I shouldnt teach what I had prepared. I quickly flipped through some books to find something to teach. I briefly prepared a lesson on Heavenly Father's love and understanding our potential. Throughout the day I kept seeing reasons why I should teach the first lesson, which was on gratitude. I kept changing my mind the entire day. After many prayers asking which lesson to teach, I concluded to teach the second one. As soon as I started the lesson, I was overwhelmed with the reassurance that it was indeed what I needed to teach. I don't even remember what I said, but I could feel the Spirit so strongly. That night, as I tucked the girls into bed, one of them told me, "Scribbles, the lesson you taught today was for me. It was exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you". Although camp is hard, it's those little miracles like this one that happen every single day that make it all worth it! I have come to feel what pure joy comes from teaching the gospel. I love Oakcrest from the bottom of my heart and cannot wait to spend my entire summer there :) I know that it is Heavenly Father's camp and is exactly where I'm supposed to be.